Duchess the swan, adorning the Gratitude Tarot

I am an explorer.

A seeker.

I search for Beauty and the Infinite wherever I am, whenever I can. Along pathways and trails, downtown streets and neighbourhood sidewalks, in woods and fields, beside tracks and streams, at the beach and by the fountain.

And she never fails me.

I find her in small things.
I find her in all things.

When my heart is open and my camera at the ready, Beauty fills me.

And here, as I explored my adopted home town of Vernon, BC, I stumbled upon her. Her grace a white cloud floating on the pond in Polson Park, paddling circles around the concrete Ogopogo, weaving her way through the chaos of mallards.

This was my first encounter with a swan, the first time my breath was stopped by graceful white majestic beauty. My camera loved her. I loved her.
She urges me below the surface to untangle these worried threads
Even before I knew her.

Months later, I learned her story. She and her mate were a gift to the city. Wings clipped to keep them in the park, where they would be safe.

And yet they were not.

10 years into their stay here, her mate was found one morning. He had been beaten to death by people.

I couldn’t hold back the tears.

I had seen this beautiful swan. I had seen her gracefully interact with people.

People, the very critters who had taken her mate from her years before.

How did she do that? How could she carry such grace and acceptance in her loneliness? How could she live here, in the place of her tragedy, day upon day, with no chance to leave, no way to find a new and happier home?

And she made the best of it. A city park employee took her under his wing. Or did she take him? Ron was considered the swan whisperer, a friend to the swan, whose name, it turns out, was Duchess.

This Amorphous MuseOnce her story reached me, I could not resist her. Tragedy and grace. Loneliness and comfort. Solace and acceptance. I tried to meet her with my lens whenever I could.

She never failed to enchant me.

In her I could see the elements of Gratitude, fluid and alive. Consistent, gracious, reliable. She inspired me. She invited me to explore the idea of Gratitude in all of her elements. In thankfulness and kindness, in awareness and community. To swim in her river, with the heartbroken swan and the glimmers of sunlight. In the place where pain and joy, sadness and delight mingle brightly and bust open my heart.

Duchess is, to me, the centerpiece for the Gratitude Tarot. Her story as intrinsic a part of my belief in Gratitude as my photos of her. Important enough to adorn the back of each card. Beautiful enough to have 5 cards with her image.

The project was rich, the images chosen, the deck nearly ready, and February was ticking its last days along, when suddenly Duchess was in the news. First injured and treated with the help of her favourite man, Ron, then returned to her beautiful pond. I was fortunate enough to see her, to take a few photos of her on a very cold Monday.

My heart hurt to look at her there in the cold, recovering from injury, no doubt still in pain. And still she was beautiful. And still her grace was breathtaking. And still my camera loved her.

The next day she was gone.

Seduce
My heart busted open. And whispered its thanks again and again.

For her inspiration. For her tragic and sweet story. For this Gratitude Tarot that would not be without her.

May she and her mate, finally returned to each other, float together on the silvery waters of Gratitude through infinity.

The limited run first edition Gratitude Tarot is printed and shipping now!

You can have Gratitude in your own hands. Only 100 decks were printed.

Read more about the Gratitude Tarot:
Why Gratitude? Wholeness: Gratitude in 4 Elements

How it began: the Gratitude Tarot

How I will use the Gratitude Tarot to set my intentions and focus my energy. How will you use it?

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20 Responses to Duchess the swan, adorning the Gratitude Tarot

  1. kelly March 6, 2012 at 5:01 pm #

    this brings tears to me eyes. years ago, gosh, like 30 years ago, i worked at a movie theatre that bordered a marsh, and a mallard duck chose to make a nest on the ground right next to the building. one night, some kids killed her, wrung her neck. i found the cold, dead eggs the next morning. i cried for days.

    it is amazing how we can become attached to these wild animals, they find a place in our heart and live there, forever.

    sending hugs to you, and holding a little place in my heart for duchess.

    • PicsieChick March 6, 2012 at 5:26 pm #

      Oh, Kelly! New tears with this story of yours. Sending you big hugs and beautiful, comforting butterflies.

      Thank you for being with me, with us, on this journey.

      ~T~

  2. Sorrow March 7, 2012 at 2:01 pm #

    I am sitting here crying like a baby lady..
    Just crying..

    • PicsieChick March 7, 2012 at 2:32 pm #

      And I’m sending you so much love. Let’s cry it out together, shall we?

      Hugs and butterflies,
      ~Teresa~

  3. Pat Binzer April 29, 2012 at 10:46 pm #

    What to say? I’m sobbing so hard I can not think. How special that you know Duchess and her life… and that you shared the incredible sadness and exquisite beauty with us.
    This elegant deck is radiant with your love and effort.

    • PicsieChick April 29, 2012 at 10:56 pm #

      Her story has this effect on a person. So tragic and beautiful. Truly I miss her and I’m honoured to share this beautiful sadness and so much more. Thank you, Pat.

      Hugs and butterflies,
      ~Teresa~

  4. Angel May 25, 2012 at 5:36 am #

    i, too, find myself in tears reading about Duchess and her journey…. and about how and why you’ve chosen to include her in the Gratitude Tarot in the ways that you have.

    i’m struck by the beauty and sacredness of your feelings of connection to her while she was here. and, perhaps, even more so by the continued connection you must feel even though she’s gone.

    beautiful. in so many ways and for so many reasons. heart-breakingly beautiful.

    interesting to experience heart-break as beautiful.. but that’s how this feels to me.

    sending the dragonflies of much magicks to you… <3

    • PicsieChick May 25, 2012 at 10:19 am #

      Thank you, Angel. Thank you for finding your way here, for letting the story of Duchess touch your heart as she has touched mine.

      It feels like this is what I’m called to do…to show everyone the Beauty that is blooming in every thing, in every moment – even the dark, sad, painful, heartbroken moments. She will save us, as long as we look for her.

      Hugs and butterflies,
      ~Teresa~

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