Rituals for letting go.
Rituals for receiving.
Answers arrived. Suggestions. Ideas. They showed me what I do not seek.
What I do not seek is knowing.
Being a triple metal Emperor by birth, of course I *want* to know. I want answers, clarity, to be right. But longing to know can be so heavy, so demanding, so tiring.
And that is not my heart.
My heart does not want to know.
My heart wants to feel. And to love. And to flow with the bright energy of butterflies and the Universe.
So, what if I learned to let go without knowing what I’m letting go of?
What if I learned to receive without knowing what would come?
What if I left it all to trust?
To trust that when I ask for the grace to let go, when I put in place the elements to let go of what I no longer need, that the Universe will guide those things away from me. And that I will be good with what the Universe chooses to remove.
To trust that when I leave my heart wide open, the Universe will guide what is most beneficial right to me. And that by trusting, I won’t confuse my intention to receive with longing for things I want. I want to trust that what enters as I receive will be exactly what I most need.
I want to learn to be good with what the Universe has in mind. What I need. What I don’t need.
It is humbling to admit I don’t know.
It is frightening to admit it is beyond my control.
But when has it ever really been up to me? The Universe takes care of me, provides me the lessons and the gifts that flow through me perfectly.
This is why I need these rituals. Why I need to set aside what I think I desire, and instead allow trust and the Universe to flow through me.
Without the ritual, I am too inclined to think. And by thinking of what I want, or what I don’t want, I get in the way of trust.
Get in the way of the Universe.
And therefore, get in the way of myself.
I suppose what I truly seek are rituals for trust.
Tomorrow we begin.