is not there
what hurts most
is what didn’t happen
what holds me down
has more lack
than substance
I see
what is given
work supported
help offered
love given
and wish
for it
to be mine
long to see
that energy
focused on
me
why can’t
I
rejoice in
the beautiful gift
offered another
why can’t
I
follow that
stellar trajectory
to discover
the brilliance
clearly
I have more work to do
I don’t want it
to hurt
your love
for another
your boost
of their art
your praise
of their skill
without the same
for me
I don’t want
to be blind
to the support
and love
and praise
from others
because it is not
from you
I don’t want
this longing
I don’t want to be in
your blind spot
I want to be
sure of me
I want to be
sure of your love for me
I want to be
so sure of it that
I never need to hear it
yet
I still need
to hear it
clearly
I have more work to do
I have no
solution
no easy fix
to mend my heart
to steer it to
wholeness
I have only
my heart
and my butterflies
pouring light
and love
into the world
even when
I need it most
Teresa~
sometimes there really are no words.
Just know that I heard you, and even though I am not the one, I am still holding you in love and light. if I knew how to send the butterflies that you so graciously send, I would fill them full up and whisper for them to alight upon your heart and bring it ease.
XXX
So lovely!
I love this! And I think that the outpouring of love brings it back to us (multiplied). So even when I feel like I have to hoard the love, because I need the love… that’s probably the best time to generously give the love!
Oy! Could you follow that? I hope it’s not too convoluted!
Much love to you!
Sue
Beautiful rhythm and beautiful words. 🙂